Crazy times we’re having right now. I mean I think I speak for many people when I say that this has got to be one of the most difficult things I have ever had to live for and I’ve been through some pretty difficult sh**.
I think the hardest thing overall is accepting that it is okay that I am struggling. I find myself being guilty for feeling sad, anxious, and throwing pity parties for the sole reason that everyone is living this same reality right now and feeling like I should not get to complain.
This isn’t just a “me” problem. Everyone is hurting. Everyone is having a difficult time. These are the thoughts that race through my head every day.
But so what? So what if this is affecting everyone. So what if other people are having a hard time. Why do we focus so much on validating everyone else but yet pushing our own emotions and feelings to the side like they don’t matter?
Why are we so quick to be supportive and there for someone else but we do not give ourselves the self-care that we deserve when things get difficult?
I think as a society we have been taught to put on this brave face and act like everything is okay even when it isn’t. We have become so used to telling people that we are fine and actually trying to make ourselves believe that.
So, I am just going to say it. I’m not fine. This has not been okay. And I am straight up, having a really hard time.
I’m an extrovert. Being stuck at home has been hard. Not being able to socialize or see the people I love has been one of the most difficult things I have had to deal with.
I have had more breakdowns in the past 3 months than I would normally have in a year.
Overall, this has been a straight-up challenge.
But that’s okay. It’s okay to not be okay. It’s time we normalize that. It’s time we normalize struggle. It’s time we normalize hardship. It’s time we stop putting ourselves down for being human and feeling.
Just because this is hard on other people doesn’t mean that our feelings aren’t valid. It doesn’t mean that this can’t be hard on us too.
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