No matter how much time goes by, this day never gets easier. No matter how much I’ve started to adjust to my new normal, it hasn’t made this day any easier. This day is a constant reminder that I lost the most important person in my life and she’s never coming back.
I don’t think you could try to explain what it feels like to go through mother’s day after your mom has died unless the person you’re talking to has been through it as well.
No matter where I am or what wonderful people I am surrounded by; it doesn’t make this day or even this unimaginably hard reality any easier.
I think one of the worst parts is- nobody gets it. The majority of people that I am surrounded by have absolutely no idea what it’s like to lose their mom let alone what it feels like for an entire day to be centered around throwing in your face the fact that your mom isn’t here.
I’m not even sure what else to say about it. I would trade every good thing I have going in my life for another day with my mom. I would do anything to have her back.
It’s a void that’s impossible to fill. It’s a feeling of emptiness that no amount of love could fix. It’s just something that’s going to be a struggle forever.
So for all of the motherless- who have to spend this day without our moms, just remember, it’s one day and it’ll be over tomorrow. Remember that your mom will always be with you and your love will live in forever.
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