To me, such a simple concept, that so many people in my life just can NOT seem to understand. I totally get that you and your parents are going to fight. Life was not always rainbows and butterflies between my mom and I either.
But COME ON. There are billions of people in this world that you can discuss these things with. There are so many people that you could choose to go to with these types of conversations. Why do you choose me?
I understand that my needs are not the forefront of everyone’s brain, all of the time. I know sometimes things slip out without you realizing. But to me, it is so simple. To not talk about something with someone who has been through the loss of that person.
MY MOM DIED. And she is never coming back. We will never get to argue. I will never get to tell anyone about another disagreement. I wish everyone could see and understand the permanency of that. I wish everyone could understand that even though their moms frustrate the hell out of them sometimes, they still have them.
Your mom is still here. You still have every chance in the world to make your relationship and things between the two of you right.
Life is too short to fight. Life is too short to hold grudges and spend time talking negatively about the people who love you. You start to realize these things when you lose someone as important as your mother.
I don’t expect to always be put first in your mind. I don’t expect that you will never “slip up” or never say something that you don’t realize will upset me. But please be cautious. Please think about my feelings, my life, and my world.
Please remember that although I put on a brave face most days that does not mean I am okay.
That does not mean losing my mom doesn’t still hurt.
It does not mean that I do not miss her, more, with every second that passes.
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