Often times it’s hard to find the words of what it feels like to be a motherless child on Mother’s Day. There are so many ways I would want to explain it, but so many emotions that are nearly impossible to get out.
No matter if this is your first motherless Mother’s Day or if it’s your 30th, I’m not sure it ever quite gets easier. I don’t want to be negative about it, I don’t think any of us do, however, it’s one of those things that none of our loved ones could understand until they have to face this reality.
It’s one of those things our friends and family members just can’t quite fathom. They can’t understand why we want to be alone on Mother’s Day. They can’t understand why we find ourselves in a massive, dark, funk on the days leading up to this day.
There is no way that they can understand this because they’ve never had to go through the pain of losing their mother.
It isn’t easy for us. Everywhere we go for the weeks leading up to this day is a shrine thrown in our face that we no longer have our mom to spend this day with.
Every commercial, every advertisement, every single place that we look at is filled with reminders that our mothers are no longer here.
Mother’s day is awful. Plain and simple. The worst day of the year. It’s one day of the year that nobody can do anything right. Nobody can make it better. There isn’t a single person we need on this day besides our mother.
And let me repeat, unless you’ve been through it, you could NEVER understand.
But it’s only one day. It’s one day and a day that will be over before we know it. All we have to do is survive, go through the motions and find a way to honor the most important woman that we will ever know.
It hurts, but the pain won’t last forever. It stings, but just like a broken bone that’s healing, it won’t ache this bad forever.
You are the luckiest person in the world for getting to share a love and a bond so strong as the one that you were able to share with your mom.
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