A Letter To The Person I Don't Know How To Stop Loving

A Letter To The Person I Don't Know How To Stop Loving

No matter how much time has past, there is one thing in my life that continues to be the same- my feelings for you.  No matter how long I go without seeing or speaking to you, time doesn’t seem to heal much at all. If anything, it just seems that the time apart makes my heart miss you even more.

I don’t know how you have this kind of effect on me. I don’t understand why it is so hard to put you behind me. I cannot fathom why it is so hard to let go of you.

I can’t possibly even begin to try and understand why I can’t just move on. It doesn’t make sense why I am fighting a losing battle every single day to put the love you and I shared behind me.

You have this hold over me that I can’t let go of. No matter how hard I try, the love just won’t go away. No matter how hard I try to remember the bad instead of the good, I just can’t seem to forget the passion we shared unlike anything I’ve ever experienced.

 

I think about you often. Way too often if you want my opinion. I find myself keeping track throughout the day how many times you popped into my head over a stupid song or restaurant I drive by.

 

Everything in life seems to bring me back to you. Everything around me seems to have some sort of memory attached to you.

 

I want to move on. I want to be able to find happiness again. I want to be able to get through a day without missing you. I want to be able to get through a day without having the desire to call you and tell you about it.

 

Everything comes back to you. With every new memory, I am wishing I was sharing it with you. With every bit of good news, I am wishing I could text you. With every bit of bad news or struggle, I am wishing I could curl up next to you in bed and forget all of the bad happening around me.

 

I loved you. I loved you with every fiber of my being. And the worst part, I still do. I still love you more with every day. I still find new ways to fall in love with you even without you in my life.

 

No matter how hard I try, I just can’t shake what we had. I just can’t shake you.

 

It’s time for me to let you go. I know I need this. I know I need to leave our relationship behind. If only it was that easy. If only it was that easy to stop loving you.

 

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