I thought that because I loved this person it was okay to fight the way that we did.
Things ending with someone that you weren’t dating comes with all sorts of problems and hardships. It leaves you wondering why you weren’t enough. If leaves you asking why’s and what if’s. It leaves you feeling like this was something you did. Basically, it just sucks.
The right person would never leave me pointing out my flaws and blaming myself.
What a terrible, terrible, feeling. To know that no matter how much you care for someone, or how hard you fight to make it work, sometimes, none of that is enough and that person can no longer reciprocate your feelings.
The right person would mean that everything aligned so that they were able to be exactly that, the right person for you. There wouldn't be any hesitations, confusion or uncertainty. The right person for you will know exactly what they want. They will know exactly what they need and they will be sure if that something is you.
Not always are both people in the emotional state to have what it takes to start a new relationship, let someone in and let themselves completely fall for another person. Just because everything else seems to be adding up, that doesn’t mean that emotionally, the other person is ready for what falling for someone new will entail.
The right person won’t ever make you feel like you’re even slightly less than worthy of a passionate and amazing love.
I was convinced I had put everything that happened between the two of us behind me. I was sure that enough time had passed, I had built up enough strength and I was ready. I was positive that I was in a place where I could move forward with my life, leaving the chapter filled with the pain you caused, far behind me.
The hardest part in moving on and letting you go is the concept that I just can’t wrap my head around. It’s the thought that overwhelms and consumes my thoughts even months later. How on earth was it so easy and effortless for you to close the door and walk away?
It is so easy to get caught up in the feelings of loving someone so deeply that you put aside your own emotional well being. We quickly ignore the signs of being treated poorly and put up with things that we shouldn’t because, well, of course, “we love them.”
There is never a right time to let go of the person that you love. The timing never seems right to say goodbye to someone who has meant the world to you. Realistically, the timing is never going to be.
There was once a time you meant everything to me. There was a time that my happiness depended on you. There was a time that I didn’t go a day without talking to you. There was a time that there were never too many days between seeing you.
No matter how much time has past, there is one thing in my life that continues to be the same- my feelings for you. No matter how long I go without seeing or speaking to you, time doesn’t seem to heal much at all. If anything, it just seems that the time apart makes my heart miss you even more.
How on earth is it actually possible that having one stupid little dream with a certain person in it, can send you head first into your grief of missing, thinking and reminiscing on this person that is no longer a part of your life?
Moving on can be one of the scariest things. There was this person who was a huge part of your life for longer than you can even remember. They were the love of your life, your best friend, and even your family.
You will miss me when you realize I no longer need you. You will miss me when you realize that I am just fine on my own, without you. You will miss me when you realize that being without you was what was best for me all along.
Every single time you found your way back into my life by convincing me things were going to be different this time, I believed you. I believed you every single time that you were going to better. This time was going to be different. It was going to be worth it.