My Mom Dying Taught Me How to Survive
I had never been through anything all that bad before losing my mom. Sure, I had been through some tough stuff and had some struggles, but nothing prepared me for the pain and struggle that my mom getting sick and dying way earlier in life than she was ever supposed to.
The grief of being a young girl without a mom was unbearable. I didn’t know how to cope, move on or “survive”. Some days I literally did not know what to do. I didn’t know how I was going to get through this, and it didn’t feel like it would ever get easier. The grief was unbearable.
As time went on, I realized exactly that. This grief was unbearable, and it was quite possibly the hardest thing I will ever have to go through. It has made a lot of life’s “little” problems seem a lot less important. It has made the petty little stuff I used to complain about seem so small and irrelevant.
But most importantly, it taught me a resilience. A resilience to prove that I can make it through anything that life throws my way. If I was able to survive the death of the most important person in my life and start to figure out how to navigate this world without her, I would most certainly be okay with the tough stuff to come.
Everyone has a different story. Everyone shared a different relationship with their mom. I understand that although my life, story and relationships may be different from someone else; for me, this was the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with, and I believe that it may be the most difficult thing that I will ever go through in this life.
Nothing will ever take the place of my mom. Nothing will ever be fair about the fact that I had to lose my mom way sooner in life than anyone should have to. There probably won’t ever be a day I go without thinking about her. However, I do believe that in time and healing, we can learn to conquer this terrible loss and learn how to “survive.”
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