This time of year never seems to get easier. It’s like even when things are going well, there is still something preventing you from being happy.
It’s like a never ending funk. One that no matter how many things are going right, still makes life feel like it is wrong.
Aside from the cold (which I hate enough myself), the holiday season makes you grieve your loved ones over again. It leaves you stuck remembering that this person is no longer here and every single thing around you is a reminder of that.
Did I mention I hate this time of year?
It makes me want to curl up in bed and stay there. The holiday season makes me distant from everyone and there’s not much I can do to fix it.
Life just isn’t the same without my mom and I don’t know about yours, but my mom and I spent the holidays together. She was my best friend. Life is just not the way it should be without her.
So on top of all of the other crappy things that are happening in my day to day life..... The holidays never fail to make things that much harder.
But never the less, we have to move forward. We don’t have a choice. So we preserve, we carry on and we live this life for our beautiful loved ones in heaven.
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