Just because you have experienced the death of someone that you love, it doesn’t mean that you know what I’m going through.
For someone that is grieving, the holidays aren’t the same as they were the year before. They instead are days that they are just trying to survive, get through and try to move forward.
There is so much that I wasn’t prepared for. There was so much that nobody could even begin to try and explain.
With every year that passes, this is one day that doesn’t seem to get easier. With every holiday, it is more clear that you are actually never coming back, and that is the scariest thought for me to wrap my head around.
You went to the funeral and went home, but, so did the family that just lost someone. They went home after the funeral too. Except what they went home to was very different. What they went home to was empty. It was sad. It was lonely.
This time of year never seems to get easier.
I really never thought the day would come that I would have to live without you. I definitely didn’t think the day would come as soon as it did.
I remember every single moment like it happened yesterday. It was 5 years ago, and there have been so many things that I have forgot that have happened over those 5 years, but not that day. Not that day and not the days leading up to and following the worst day of my life.
Everyone grieves differently. Everyone will handle the loss of a loved one in a different way. The way you handle it doesn’t make you weird. It doesn’t make you wrong. It doesn’t make you any worse off than someone else.
Grief can often seem never ending. It can suck us in and cause us into a downward spiral of painful emotions and destruction. It is so important that during this horrible time we find positive outlets and happier ways to deal with this
Probably one of the most powerful things that anyone has ever said to me. It’s a quote that has stayed in my mind since the day that I heard it and has provided me with strength and guidance as I continue along on my “grief” journey.
There is nothing in this world I could want more than to be able to drop everything and come see you for few hours. There is nothing I dream of more often than even just a few seconds of reuniting with you again.