Why do people come into our lives just to so quickly leave? Why do we meet what seems to be the right person at what quickly becomes the wrong time? Why do we fall in love just for things to not work out? Why does it seem like many people come into our lives just to leave us with so much more hurt?
It's hard for me to think about. It's hard for me to wrap my head around all of the losses I have experienced. Whether it be because of death or a failed relationship or friendship it seems that every time someone leaves my life it hurts and even brings back the hurt and pain of those losses from before.
Will I ever heal from all of the loss I have experienced? Will the pain of losing a loved one and going through a break up every subside? Will I spend the rest of my life still having feelings for someone I once loved years prior?
It's frustrating. Why is it that people have to come into our lives just to leave us with more pain than the way we started? When will the time come that everything will fall into place the way that we always thought things were "supposed" to be.
When will the time come that I'm no longer reminsing about old love and old flings that ended long ago?
I'm sick of feeling pain. I'm sick and tired of thinking about those that hurt me. I'm sick of caring for the people who selfishly couldn't do the same for me.
The games get old. The fighting and the anger have become something I am just so sick of. I am ready to stop losing people and instead gain someone who is just going to stay.
I'm ready to stop being "used to" people leaving. Loss shouldn't be something that I have become this familiar with.
Loss shouldn't be something that I expect.
I'm ready to stop losing people. I'm ready for people to stay.
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