I think we can all agree that this is a feeling nobody could understand unless they went through it first hand, themselves.
It’s a feeling I could never try to explain to someone who still has his or her mother. It’s feeling I can’t put into words most of the time. Realistically, it’s the worst feeling in the world that never seems to get easier as time goes by.
It’s the pit in your stomach walking into CVS, Wal-Mart or the grocery store months leading up to this day and knowing you are going to be bombarded with a display in front of your face reminding you that you don’t have a mother to share this day with.
It’s the emptiness you feel when you hear your friends, family, and coworkers talk about their Mother’s Day plans or what they got their mothers. Another reminder that you don’t have your mom to spend this day with.
It’s the deep sadness you experience when you log on to any form of social media on Mother’s Day. Collages, pictures, and kind words everybody is posting about their day with their mom’s. One of the worst feelings.
It’s the empty hole in your body you feel when you wake up on Mother’s Day. You stay under the covers a little longer, you brace yourself for how you are going to get out of bed and get through the day. You feel empty and numb that this entire day is going to be a reminder that your mom is not here.
It’s the grief-stricken feeling you get when you leave the house on this day and everywhere you go you see people and their mothers. You notice it more than ever. Every place you walk into it’s like a parade of daughters and sons with their mothers. You feel like you are grieving all over again.
It’s the feeling of loneliness. The feeling that nobody understands the emptiness that you are feeling today. The feeling that nobody can relate.
It’s a feeling no person could explain unless they too must spend this day without their mom.
Luckily, it’s only one day and it will be over tomorrow.
And I promise you are not alone.
You will get through this.
Tomorrow is a new day.
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Also, here are some great resources for anyone who has lost a mother
https://www.facebook.com/iamamotherlessdaughter/
https://www.facebook.com/Motherless-Daughters-153858391294874/?fref=ts
Know it well. Then I acquired a step-mom at the end of my freshman year in college (1986) and I had to add on the awkward feelings of trying to find the right card and gift. Hasn’t changed much – altho we are very close and she considers me one of her own, it still is tough to find a card that doesn’t reference birth and childhood years.